GOOD MORNING, I HAVE NOT BEEN FEELING WELL LATELY, SEEMS GOD WAS TUGGING AT MY SOUL, SENDING ME FEELINGS OF EMPTINESS,LONELINESS, CONFUSION, HUMILITY,DESPAIR,, AND MANY OTHER FEELINGS. IN A LUMP SUM I WAS SIMPLY UNHAPPY. NO MATTER WHAT I DID IN A DAY I STILL FELT UNHAPPY. SO THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT I WAS UNABLE TO SLEEP I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME. I FINALLY STOPPED AND JUST SAT ON MY BED. I HADN'T PRAYED IN QUITE SOMETIME NOR OPENED MY BIBLE. I BEGIN TO PRAY AND TEARS CAME POURING OUT, I WAS UNHAPPY, I WAS SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING IN THIS WORLD TO COMPLETE ME..AND IT CAME TO ME ALL I'VE LONGED FOR WAS GOD. I HAVE BEEN IN A STRUGGLE WITH THE LORD ALL MY LIFE. THE UN WILINESS TO GIVE UP MY OWN WANTS AND DESIRES TO WORSHIP HIM IN DOING HIS WILL. I JUST COULD NOT DO THIS, TIME AND TIME AGAIN I'VE BEEN SAVED AND FAILED.FEELING AS IF I COULD NEVER DO RIGHT BY HIM. I REALLY HAD TO PRAY LAST NIGHT TO EVEN GET MYSELF TO THE POINT OF RE-DEDICATING MY LIFE TO HIM,FEELING AS IF I WOULD ONLY FAIL HIM AGAIN, I FINALLY CAME TO WHAT HE WAS TRYING TO TELL ME ALL ALONG, I CAN BE SAVED AND I CAN CHANGE AND I CAN GIVE MY LIFE TO HIM WITHOUT THE FEELING OF DISAPPOINTMENT. SO I DID I RE-DEDICATED MYSELF TO CHRIST THIS MORNING I AM HAPPY TO SAY I AM SAVE AND BELIEVE THAT CHRIST OUR LORD LOVES ME AND YOU AND IF YOU JUST REPENT OF YOUR SINS AND ASK HIM TO COME INTO YOUR LIFE HE WILL ANSWER AND HE CAN AND WILL COMPLETE YOU. IM SO HAPPY, THOUGH I KNOW IT WILL NOT BE EASY FOR AS I SAID I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH RELIGION ALL MY LIFE. I AM DETERMINED TO BE A FAITHFUL SERVANT OF CHRIST ALL MY DAYS UPON THIS EARTH FROM THIS DAY FORWARD. I HAVE MY TRAILS AND TRIBULATIONS AHEAD OF ME BUT I AM NOT ALONE HE IS WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. AND THOUGH I MAY HAVE FAILED SO MANY TIMES BEFORE THAT DOES NOT MEAN I WILL FAIL THIS TIME AGAIN. I BELIEVE THAT WITH HIS LOVE AND SUPPORT I WILL BE THE CHRISTIAN HE HAS LONGED FOR ME TO BE ALL ALONG. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL FOR LISTENING TO THIS AND PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYS.THAT I MAY GROW A STRONG RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD AND KEEP HIM FIRST IN MY LIFE FOR THE REST OF MY DAYS.
I WISH YOU ALL A BLESSED DAY AND WILL TALK WITH YOU ALL SOON..AS THE NEW MELISSA BORN AGAIN IN CHRIST.
WOW--Melissa......thats alot of heart poured out in your message this morning. I'll remember you in my prayers that you follow the path you feel is right for you. Have a great day hun...XX Bonnie
if you are feeling so blue maybe u should go and see a doctor also, and get to talk to someone. i myself deal with this sort of problem and let me tell you, it affects the ppl around you. glad you found god. good luck.
Melissa, you gave me a warm feeling just reading this post. Don't worry if you stumble. God knows we are humans and we will fall short at times. He forgives us if we ask him. As long as He knows you are trying your best, he will be pleased. When you feel weak, ask for strength and He will give it. I truly believe that. God Bless You.
Remember that old saying - Smile, God Loves You? It is true - now SMILE :0)
amen sister Melissa. God is so good, he hears our prayers and knows our hearts desire and wants us to turn to Him. I am very happy for you that you are experiencing a revival in your soul
GOOD EVENING NH, THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR KIND WORDS AND SUPPORT. I TRULY APPRECIATE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, I KNOW THIS JOURNEY HAS JUST BEGUN THOUGH I'VE BEEN HERE SO MANY TIMES I FEEL AT EASE FOR I KNOW SOMEWHAT, WHAT TO EXPECT. I WILL REMAIN STRONG AND CONTINUE TO LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW MY PROGRESS IS GOING I DO HAVE A BLOG I STARTED A FEW YEARS BACK WHEN I TRIED GOD AND FAILED. I WILL BE PICKING IT UP AND HOPING IT GROWS WITH ME. WENDY YES IT IS ME :O). AND JUNEBUG YOU ARE SO WELCOME YOU MADE ME FEEL GOOD AS WELL KNOWING MY WORDS BROUGHT THOSE FEELINGS UPON YOU, I'VE GOT SOME READING TO DO (BIBLE STUDY) I LOOK FORWARD TO CATCHING UP WITH ALL OF YOU AND SEEING WHAT I HAVE MISSED IN THE NH. BE SAFE AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES,SIGNIFICANT OTHERS AND FAMILY UNTIL THE NEXT TIME WE CONVERSE.
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